What I couldn't say without tears.....

Megan this is for you because I was too emotional to tell you when I said goodbye and I was too worried I would bawl when I gave my speech so I am writing it so you can read it and save it. I wanted to type up something and give it to you when I left but I figured we might both cry more ;-) here it goes:

I thank God everyday that I decided to go on that cruise and we became best friends. You have been through everything with me these past years and stood by me no matter what. I hope you know that your support throughout my eating disorder and your daily calls and weekly visits while I was inpatient meant more to me than I think I can ever ever express to you. When I don't feel the strength or the will to recover for myself I think of all the support you offered ( and still do) to me during that time and it keeps me going. What I love about our friendship is the fact that we can do anything together and still have fun- wheater its getting lost around KC or getting blackout drunk we make it a good time. I feel like you are part of my family and I am so happy that you have found someone you are going to spend the rest of your life with. (too bad its not in KS though lol) You are truely like a sister to me and I love you so so much. I know everyone says that they arn't sure how they are going to make it without you here but I litterly am questioning it! Who am I going to send my random text messages to now that only you think are funny, or make fun or Barnicles with or drink more than is soically apporatie ever. I don't doubt for a second though that when you come back our friendship will still be the same. I am going to do everything in my power to save up the money to come and visit you at least once while your there. I hope you know just how much I love you. Thank you for making these last years amazing because when we meet I was truely questioning if I was going to be able to get through much more at KU and suddenly it became fun again. Call me like every single day possible and i will do the same. These next years are going to be so great for you as you start a new chapter in your life- it might seem scary now (change is hard) but you have a great guy to stand by you and I am only a phone call or an email away or hell an emerancy plane ticket!
-Melsky