Piano Bars and McDolands.

So my dream finally came true last night.... I got to go to the piano bar in KC, and yes it was everything I hoped for and more. Let me set the scene: when anyone walks in they shine a spotlight on them and the whole bar yells "holy shit, look who is here!" they also have a wheel that people can pay to spin and things on it like sing a solo, ice bath, etc. I think my favorite part of the night was when I discovered that the fish bowls were only $13. Last night was American Idol night, meaning you could pay to have your friend get up and sing a song of your choice. I dont really remember too much more... just meeting some guys with mohawks, me getting so drunk I started to get super cold and couldnt stop shaking, and making morgan go through 3 taco bells before we realized it was past all of taco bells closing time so then we went to mcdolands which was prob the best food I have ever eaten in my life.

I'm kinda boring

well my life has been pretty damn boring as of lately. I have been trying to not have to many emotional breakdowns with school projets all hitting at the same time and then working like 9000 hours a week. Being a CSL at such a high volume store is equal to being a CO manager at another VS so its a lot of work but I like it. Sometimes I just get overwhemled. For some reason I had what seemed to be an easy semester until thes last few weeks and then I was was hit wtih like the hardest projects ever. I admit I wasnt doing too hot thoughout the rest of the semester with other life stuff so whatever its not the end of the world to have bad grades I keep telling myself... I just feel like sometimes everyone has moved on but me.. My mom reminded me though that I DID just get this promotion at work and thats moving forward. I am almost done with school-1 year left. Its not a race I keep telling myself. Yes I would have liked to do 4/12 years or 5 like my other friends but I had some circumstatces that held me back that I dont like to admit and I wish like hell I was stronger and could have kept going but what is, is and I cant keep beating myself up over it. For some reason Im just in a down place and I am trying like hell to get out of it. My goal though is to never ever let it show at work and I think that so far I have done a great job at that.I ROCK my segments. I always have the highest converison (which i wont bore you with but thats like really amazing and good) anyway.... I wish I had fun drunk stories for everyone but i dont so alas thats my update. I am hoping to be able to go out after the meeting on sunday and celebrate morgans graduation sadly im not off till 9 so im going to hightail it to L town. Lets just rap cap last years events....
someone we wont say who threw up in a bush at the ranch then kept drinking someone else cough cough (me) might have made a new guy friend for the evening. And ohhh lets see man the rest is all a blur... oh travis I think almost got kicked out of the ranch too lol. Good times!!! Ohhh how a year changes things!!!!

What I couldn't say without tears.....

Megan this is for you because I was too emotional to tell you when I said goodbye and I was too worried I would bawl when I gave my speech so I am writing it so you can read it and save it. I wanted to type up something and give it to you when I left but I figured we might both cry more ;-) here it goes:

I thank God everyday that I decided to go on that cruise and we became best friends. You have been through everything with me these past years and stood by me no matter what. I hope you know that your support throughout my eating disorder and your daily calls and weekly visits while I was inpatient meant more to me than I think I can ever ever express to you. When I don't feel the strength or the will to recover for myself I think of all the support you offered ( and still do) to me during that time and it keeps me going. What I love about our friendship is the fact that we can do anything together and still have fun- wheater its getting lost around KC or getting blackout drunk we make it a good time. I feel like you are part of my family and I am so happy that you have found someone you are going to spend the rest of your life with. (too bad its not in KS though lol) You are truely like a sister to me and I love you so so much. I know everyone says that they arn't sure how they are going to make it without you here but I litterly am questioning it! Who am I going to send my random text messages to now that only you think are funny, or make fun or Barnicles with or drink more than is soically apporatie ever. I don't doubt for a second though that when you come back our friendship will still be the same. I am going to do everything in my power to save up the money to come and visit you at least once while your there. I hope you know just how much I love you. Thank you for making these last years amazing because when we meet I was truely questioning if I was going to be able to get through much more at KU and suddenly it became fun again. Call me like every single day possible and i will do the same. These next years are going to be so great for you as you start a new chapter in your life- it might seem scary now (change is hard) but you have a great guy to stand by you and I am only a phone call or an email away or hell an emerancy plane ticket!
-Melsky